I'm pretty damn resentful but is it justified?
I'm a working mother at a minimum wage job, I work 3 days a week for $7.25, why do I even bother working? It seems like it's absolutely useless to work and make this little bit of money when I could be doing so much more productive things with my time. I'd much rather be a SAHM (stay at home mom) and given household responsibilites. While I do have household responsibilities when I come home from work, I am always tired and hardly get anything done unless I have a few days off. I'd love to have the house clean EVERYDAY instead of 3 or 4/7 days of the week.
My fiance is pretty adimit that I continue working as we are not financially stable for me to be a SAHM, and to a point I understand that but like I said, I'm working a PART TIME MINIMUM WAGE JOB 3 days a week.... How am I even contributing with my tiny paycheck? I feel my qualities are for housework and raising children, not for working out in public. I don't enjoy the company of POMPUS, rude people.
I'd love to do so much more with my life and time than work, sleep, eat, work, and sleep, so on and so forth. I want to make our home life way better than what it currently is, I feel so misreable. I also know that my fiance is misreable as well, not only can I see it on his face but I can also feel it radiating off of him. I'd do anything to make him happy but how can I while working this deadend, shit job?
I wish there was a logical way to convince my fiance that me being a SAHM would be more beneficial than me working, so far I'm not having any luck finding ways that would actually convince him, I fear he'll just continuously say no. Can't he see that I'm so unhappy? I'm depressed and I feel trapped, I don't how to be happy anymore. Not unless he'd allow me to stay home and take care of things like a woman should.
